I do/dont look forward to year 2011?

Oh gosh, starting from this week until the mid of dec I'll be rushing for deadlines. With only 2 weeks of breather, and the crazy endless deadlines, presentations and tests will be bombarding my whole Jan and Feb. Aw, I hate it, hate it. I really don't look forward for 2011. But, part of me want 2011 to faster come! March, faster come! It's only Nov.... now.

I love tumblr now. hahaha byebye to this site. Ja

This isn't what I wanted.Really. What can I say? What more can I do? I can't meet up to your expectations and you just hated me like crazy. Don't vent your anger on me. I have feelings. I wished that I can be independent and lived on my on. I am grateful that my dad is on my side and always on my side. I really want to thank him for his endless love towards me. And, I don't hate you. but I'm just getting tired of your endless venting of fustrations on me when I've done nothing wrong at all. These made me HATE going home. I just hate going home now. really, I wished that you could see this. we can't even talk on good terms, we can'teven have the normal mother-daughter talk in peace without you shouting at me. I know you cared, but I hate the way you showed your care to me. I know, just admit it, you simply hate me. I wished that JHWIHRJWFRGEIRFGWBIHUWDHUHDUW i'm sad :'(

New world of difference.

Time is passing way too slowly. ><><>

Although the semester have started, but skype with shinyus is a must. I cannot imagine a day without chatting with them. HONTONI! I wanna go enroll in Bunka with Natalie soon! Let's gooooooooo!

最幸福的事，是为心爱的人做件事。我要考上大学。

///// kanashi

Problem solved, and another starts to surface. You know, I really don't know how to communicate with you. I understand that you have the best plan ahead for me and wished that I will follow, but, I have my own mind and I am old enough to plan the future of my own. I do appreciate that you are concerned with my grades, but, hey I'm old enough to think for myself. If what I am doing now makes you think that I'm such unfillial and bad (?) daughter, then I can't help it. We are a family, but why treat me this way when you can treat the others so warm and caring (????) and so cold towards me. I don't understand, I guess I never will understand. I am bad with my grades, I know.