I do/dont look forward to year 2011?

Oh gosh, starting from this week until the mid of dec I'll be rushing for deadlines. With only 2 weeks of breather, and the crazy endless deadlines, presentations and tests will be bombarding my whole Jan and Feb. Aw, I hate it, hate it. I really don't look forward for 2011. But, part of me want 2011 to faster come! March, faster come! It's only Nov.... now.

I love tumblr now. hahaha byebye to this site. Ja

This isn't what I wanted.Really. What can I say? What more can I do? I can't meet up to your expectations and you just hated me like crazy. Don't vent your anger on me. I have feelings. I wished that I can be independent and lived on my on. I am grateful that my dad is on my side and always on my side. I really want to thank him for his endless love towards me. And, I don't hate you. but I'm just getting tired of your endless venting of fustrations on me when I've done nothing wrong at all. These made me HATE going home. I just hate going home now. really, I wished that you could see this. we can't even talk on good terms, we can'teven have the normal mother-daughter talk in peace without you shouting at me. I know you cared, but I hate the way you showed your care to me. I know, just admit it, you simply hate me. I wished that JHWIHRJWFRGEIRFGWBIHUWDHUHDUW i'm sad :'(

New world of difference.

Time is passing way too slowly. ><><>

Although the semester have started, but skype with shinyus is a must. I cannot imagine a day without chatting with them. HONTONI! I wanna go enroll in Bunka with Natalie soon! Let's gooooooooo!

最幸福的事，是为心爱的人做件事。我要考上大学。

///// kanashi

Problem solved, and another starts to surface. You know, I really don't know how to communicate with you. I understand that you have the best plan ahead for me and wished that I will follow, but, I have my own mind and I am old enough to plan the future of my own. I do appreciate that you are concerned with my grades, but, hey I'm old enough to think for myself. If what I am doing now makes you think that I'm such unfillial and bad (?) daughter, then I can't help it. We are a family, but why treat me this way when you can treat the others so warm and caring (????) and so cold towards me. I don't understand, I guess I never will understand. I am bad with my grades, I know.

I I I I I don't know.

Bid farewell.

Bye Singapore. Mixed feelings, I don't don't hate the idea of going holiday. But, I have to leave my lapppy behind, which means no skype with shinyus, I have to stop seeing Natalie, I have to stop connection for a week. It's okay, my shinyu say-" Enjoy your trip!" I will :D arigatou :D I'll miss you there toooo toooooo tooooo hahaha.

maji hamano

亲爱的， 我们又见面了。

我超爱的。它叫miniyasu

MAJI HAMANO !!!

I'm really happy today. I have no idea why, but I'm really happy today. I really love my miniyasu. So much so that I'm afraid that I'll lose it. Anyway, I'll be off for China in a days time, to Hainan city. Research says that it's environment is similiar to Singapore, but now it's flooding. Hopefully I won't experience a real flood for the first time. haha I'm satisfied with what I have right now. Although I missed you like crazy and misery sets in when I think of the past, but, I'll get cheered up thinking of being able to see you in March. Sometimes I'll wonder how are you doing over there, and what are you thinking about. I know, people might think me as foolish, it is not real, but I can't be bothered. I love you and I missed you dearly.

好想你

不知道。我好烦。好想你。好怀念。樱桃。 不知道，不想管，不想理。 真的，好烦。

i love you, you you you n youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

Work was tiring, but it's okay. Because I love my customers. Lepak with Natalie, Jarel and Quim. I have a dream now, that is, secret. >< I love shinyus, I love JSXP, I love my family, I love my store, I love everyone. We are only human. Tonight I'm gonna rest early, no skype till 3 a.m. for me. Perhaps a reasonable 11.59 p.m. would be perfect? hahaha shinyuuuu where are you? :( I miss shinyu badly :'(

skype is heaven for us.

Went over to Nat's place to lepak and did our <等待三月>'s book. Special thanks to yasu for not forgetting me and getting that maji kawaii bear. I'll wait for you in March as well! :D I'm tired, ought to rest soon. Lately, I've been busy with skyping, work and facebook... getting tired, but, I don't wish to end it just like that. I love you! :D